Time For a Color Change and Other Things

I get bored semi-often with my appearence. I've been brunette, fully blonde, had fuscia colored hair, streaks, red, and so on and so forth. Right now, my hair is dark brunette with light caramel streaks. Frosted, but lightly. Next, I already have the stuff to do it, I'm gonna chunk it. My bangs which are nearly to my chin now, the immediate sides and the top blondish and leaving underneath and the bottom dark.

I'm not sure when I'm going to get around to it. If I don't do it soon, I won't be able to for a couple months because my down time will set it back.

I already watched a movie tonight. Spent time out in the living room with the family for a couple of hours prior, and slept in way too late again. I didn't wake up until 8:00 p.m. I woke because the pain in my legs was getting out of hand and because I didn't want to reach over and take my meds earlier since it would caused me to not go back to sleep, I didn't take them. Finally I didn't have a choice. I woke, took them, and got up.

I'm still eating mostly only veggies and drinking the slim fast shakes. I had 2 bites of general chicken, 2 bites of chow mein and about 5 bites of rice the other night. That's it.

I had a mushroom bowl yesterday sauteed in a tiny bit of butter or margarine, or whatever it was in there. And then a salad with tomato later with a couple table spoons of diet italian and a shake. We're out of oranges, tangerines, banana's etc. Between me and the grandson, we wiped them out.

I give him a quarter to half of whatever I have. I usually peel 2 tangerines though since they're small. Started drinking Crystal light, diluted.

Tomorrow will cook up a cabbage, that's it, nothing added. A little sea salt and pepper on it after it's in my bowl.

I'm probably still not eating right, but I know it's better than it was. I'm trying to eat something small 6 times a day, but it's mentally hard for me. My mind thinks if I eat like that especially when it's easy to go a day or two without eating that I will gain weight.
On the other hand, I know it's true that eating smaller, more often, is better. I just have to keep convincing myself it's okay.

Like today, sleeping in so late, I only ate once. I had broccoli again and added a slice of colby jack to it.

There's an excersise bike simulator thingy I want to get. It's just the pedals. You set it at your feet, sit and pedal.

Maybe that will help me some. I know I will not be able to tolerate it for long, but even 10 minutes at a time, or 5 minutes twice a day will help.

Just keep thinking of things that will help me when it's difficult to excersise at all.

They say blondes have more fun, but brunettes get the job done.

hahahaha, maybe being both is exactly what I need.

Until next time...

2009 ToDo List

1. Continue to be the best slave that I can be to my Master and with unconditional servitude accept his decision to take another slave when that time comes.

2. Continue to strive harder by sleeping less to spend as much time as I can with my family. They need me in their presence and I need them in mine.

3. Try not to judge a person based on the judgement of others. I can decide for myself and learn for myself. I don't need saving.

4. Let go and toss away all the negative energies amidst life's complications. I don't need drama, I don't seek it and I don't thrive on it, I'll remain content in my little 'ol world. I'll be sure to live longer without the anxiety and stress.

5. Make sure that I'm always available to help those in need, especially those struggling with and attempting to survive RSD(S)/CRPS. Pain is universal, but so is hope.

6. Continue to work hard in finding a cure for RSD(S)/CRPS. Providing information, resources, advocacy, constant research, clinical trials and promoting awareness to the entire world.

7. Continue to work on my degree in Corporate Publishing. It may take me forever, and it may never happen, but I can keep trying. *I already passed the pre req classes with a B average and earned that certificate.

8. Try to keep my body healthy and strong despite the complications. I've beat negative odds before, I can do it again.

9. Be the reminder that when ones life becomes borrowed time, your entire outlook on life changes. It all changes. Everything it once was changes. Show others that if they fix the negatives, hurt and bitterness in their lives now, there will be nothing heavy on ones shoulders to carry around, instead only peace. Pass on in peace.

10. Never step back and never stand down. If someone said, I'm going to die tomorrow, I'll be right there telling them I'm going to live past it. If I'm told it's over, I'll tell you, it's only just begun. If I'm told I can't, watch me, I will. If someone told me they're leaving, I'll say, that's okay, I'll still be here for you. If someone told me to "go get fucked", I'd say thank you, don't mind if I do. And then I'd go beg some. And with it your request would surely be granted. ~winks

Bonus. Life Goes On