Part of my therapy is letting go of all things that cause stress, tensing, struggles, worries, hurt, etc etc.
I made a post to the GP forum on CM that was not so nice. I will accept the consequences of my actions, but I cannot regret them fully. When regret starts to take over I have to remind myself there is no regret.
I feel soooooo free now.
I got rid of a part of my life that caused hurt to linger inside me. I don't feel that anymore. New emotions are trying to make their way inside me because of my actions, but I'll keep shoving them back.
No it's not my nature to do or say what I did. It's my nature to let people walk on me, use me, be there for everyone else but myself. I am being taught, molded and re programmed in a very different way.
Right now I'm a slave to a team of doctors in a way, they set my entire day for me, every last minute of it is scheduled by them. My routine is what others require of me.
Yesterday wasn't easy to say the least... and in so many ways was detrimental...
But I accomplished something regardless the outcome...
My plate isn't spilling over anymore.
Until next time...