Sunday, April 05, 2009

Emotional Emotions

This one's Master woke her about 11:00am to tell her to take her meds and she did. He didn't tell her to get up, just to get those meds down. She woke up about an hour later, sat up, and stared at her laptop which is on a stand right next to the bed. She took the less important of her meds. The Morphine and Cymbalta is what he told her to take. Those have to be taken properly and on a schedule. Her son brought her some iced coffee all the makings of a wonderful start to her day.

Within a half hour she started crying. Her stimulator wasn't working right, she figured she slept wrong, bending her back, easy to happen especially in ones sleep. There was pressure on her back, not really uncommon, it's healing back there, or should be. She started to get overly emotional that she just went through all this for nothing. Not true, it was for something. She called her Master in to take off her collar because she thought it might be interfering, it's only been back on 2 days. Kind of like when a baby gets an allergic reaction, remove anything new from the baby, like detergents or food. As she lowered her head for him to remove it, she started bawling even worse, she held back as best she could. He understood her feelings though. Her collar takes a screw and allen wrench, it's the one she got for Christmas, an Eternity collar. While it may seem weird to some, that collar is her freedom. All her collars are her freedom. She does not like when it's not there. He's going to look for one of her others, or buy her another in the meantime if need be.

Then she took her temperature and it said 32.9. No! That's impossible. Her emotions started turning to annoyance. The battery must be going out in it. She's been running between 81 and 89.

Then she tried to go potty (yeah that kind) It hurt! because of the pressure on her spine, no doubt.

One supposes because all this smacked her in the face at one time is the reason she feels detached from herself still.

She'll be getting her shower soon. The man is putting our son a computer together now and she hasn't called him to tell him she's ready. After waiting all these days for one, at the moment she doesn't care anymore. But have to do it. Everything is ready, clean towels, a seperate cloth to pat the areas dry, etc.

Have to get it done within the hour no matter what because the man ordered ppv wrestling for him and his son to watch and it starts at 3:00p.m.

Until later...

5 comments:

Snowbrush said...

"After waiting all these days for one, at the moment she doesn't care anymore."

Isn't it often the case that things we want so badly just don't seem so welcome when they finally happen? I hope you will have your shower soon, and that you will feel better.

Did taking the collar off help?

phoenix said...

Hi twink,

Well with everything you've been through with the surgery and all it's not surprising that you're feeling so emotional. Add in the sleep deprivation and it's amazing that this didn't happen sooner. You'll feel better after the hosing down, not being clean doesn't help.

**hugs**

kazza

His kajirah said...

Hi Snow

"Isn't it often the case that things we want so badly just don't seem so welcome when they finally happen?"

This is true in so many cases. Maybe it has to do with having to longer wait.

I did get my shower and do feel better in that I feel fresher, my hair smells good, and just an overall clean feeling.

I'm not sure yet if the taking of my collar off has helped any. I may need to have him put it back on for a few hours just to test it. I think I'll wait a bit yet for this just to get a better idea if it had anything to do with the stimulation.

Still having an uncomfortable feeling of pressure at the bottom of the incision in the spinal area.

Oh my gosh Snow, I have to tell you something, when I mentioned the thermometer? The man checked it and it was set to Celsius. I had no idea and before he checked it he asked me if it might have been, my answer was "I didn't know, I didn't change anything on it". He checked it and well the rest is history now.

laughs. I'm a ding dong sometimes.
Of course I'm no longer annoyed about it, instead just blushing.

Wishing you most well

Snowbrush said...

"Then she took her temperature and it said 32.9....She's been running between 81 and 89."

"I have to tell you something, when I mentioned the thermometer? The man checked it and it was set to Celsius."

I thought of that, but if you put any of the numbers given on ANY scale you would still be dead. For example, 81 C is not too terribly far from boiling, whereas 81 F would be fatally hypothermic.

BTW, normal body C is 37, and normal body F is 98.6.

His kajirah said...

I just took my temperature again after reading your response it says 97.9.

I must have been all off on the C numbers and the F.

I'm sure it's been saying in the 80's F all week. Not in the 90's at all.

Odd.

Maybe the thing isn't working right, or maybe I haven't been taking my temp right.

You said "BTW, normal body C is 37, and normal body F is 98.6."

Thank you for this. I couldn't recall the normal body temp degrees.